Boredom makes you post strange things

Today was really blah
I am making this journal Friends Only because of the perverts and stalkers who only want to see my photos.

Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's ten thousand photographs of my cat.

I want to say thanks to the people that actually see my blog

You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you next week's lottery numbers.

I got bored and happened to find this on my yahoo page when I log in. I'm bored at work and just took an exam this morning, just trying to pass the time so that I can go shopping for an outfit later on. Gotta have one new something to go to Montreal in! :)

That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm beautiful.

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One Week Left...

and I'm gone to Montreal. I'm actually getting excited about it now, especially after Friday's second and final meeting. One of my classmates from CoB is going. Everyone that's going is from CoB, but she's someone I'm actually cool with. Its gonna be fun all week. It's done!

Other good news, got awarded a scholarship from CoB. I just took one of those "what the hell, why not" chances in March and applied. Pretty much like I did with signing up for the Montreal study abroad. I got a notification Friday in the mail that I received a $1000 scholarship for the 04-05 school year. I only need it for the Fall Quarter, but who gives a damn, I got another scholarship, which I thought was seriously impossible by now. Expect the unexpected, pretty much.

Oh yeah, that Kanye concert was fun. Took him forever and a day to get to the campus, but it was worth the wait for a freebee concert. He had me weak when he played "You Don't Know My Name" (during a melody of songs he producd) and redid Alicia Keys's conversation where he called a girl and ended with "Yes, head will be perfect", in place of Alicia's "Thursday will be perfect". Also, found out that John Legend guy (the one that sings on "This Way" by Diolated Peoples, and that new Slum Village song) is from Springfield, Ohio. That's kinda hot, but when is Cincinnati gonna get on the map?

If my pics come out decent, I'll scan and post a couple. Since me and my friend Teresa was behind hella tall guys, we was just holding up the cameras toward the stage and hoping for the best. Out of the 25936906 pictures we took, one's gotta come out halfway decent.

I'm doing this for my girl Tala

She had these posted on her site a minute ago:

1. What do you think about when you can't sleep at night? I wonder what I am going to do the next day.
2. What is the first thing you think about when you wake up? Going back to sleep.
3. What do you have to fall back to when you are depressed? My favorite cd's, and old poems I wrote
4. What makes you cry? Missing my Daddy...
5. Which are more important to you...intentions or actions?
6. What could improve your life? I would like some peace please.
7. Do you believe in unconditional love? Yes I do
8. What makes you fall asleep at night? Boring television, rainstorms, or reading a textbook.
9. What hurts you heart? Having it broken.
10. How can I help you? I like hugs - they're free :)

The Busiest Day (in a long time...)

Okay, when it hits midnight tonight, I definately won't be upset. Today has been one of the most hectic days that I had in a long while. With this being the last week of classes prior to finals, it seems like everything for my classes was due this week, which sucked overall, especially since i'm taking 19 credits, trying to slowly kill myself. More like trying to get finished by December; making a small sacrifice, doing what I gotta do for now. This week alone, I had two group presentations, one group report, a business plan, and an extra credit assignment, all completed at the last minute somehow by the graces of God. I still have three exams next week, four counting a make-up exam from when I was still out of town in Philly/Jersey/NYC, and an 8-10 page reflective paper that's due next week. And I still have to prep for this study abroad trip that's less than two weeks away (notice that I changed the image above...)?! I seriously need a nap! Well, even after skipping out of Sports Marketing early today (just stayed long enough to turn in that extra credit assignment and get accounted for on the attendance), and getting a ride home from my Grandma (love her for that one, she saved me a 45 minute ride between two busses), and a quick trip to the grocery store (had to stock up on a few snacks in preparation for a cram session sometime this weekend), I STILL DIDN'T GET THAT NAP!

Well, the good thing about tonight is that Kanye West is gonna be on campus for free. Can't beat that with a stick, nope. That should brighten my spirits. But for now, I have to go and help my Mom with the groceries, get changed for this meeting (well, the concert actually, but I still have to meet with my study abroad group tonight), and calm down for a minute.

"Breathe In, Breathe Out."

Today just felt like a good day to post another pic. I made this my tiled background on my laptop. Looks odd, but I like it.

Update from that new job situation. I'm only allowed to earn a certain amount on summer work study, and the way things look now, I can't work at the library and the new job with the hours that I wanted to at first, and still try to chase after a commission based job on campus (which I finally interviewed for on Friday). Discovering such depressing info on the Friday of the only three day weekend of the quarter didn't place me into the best mood, but I went with it. The grad party that was thrown in honor of my cousins went fine, a laid back family function that started 2 hours late, that ended up being a trip out to the movies by the end of the night. I got like 15 billion papers due this week, plus Kanye West is going to be on campus this Thursday, and I happened to schedule a group meeting at the exact same time he hits the stage. Maybe if things are in order we can crunch out the info in 30 minutes so that I can go see him on stage. Its not too often when you get an entertainer of his calibur to come to the University of Cincinnati, for a free performance. Then again, Coretta Scott King is going to be here as the graduation speaker in a couple of weeks. I wonder if she knows that Cincinnati needs some serious healing right now.
Digression...
With some planning and rescheduling of hours, I think that this work study issue can be worked out. Now if it would only stop raining outside. Then again this can be a good time to get some work done, I can't say that anything outside is distracting me.

 

Yay! Starting next month, I'm going go be working here as a work-study student, as well as at Langsam Library during the Summer Quarter. Went for the interview this past Friday, and it went well, plus it was brief, only a half an hour. I've been so caught up in getting all these assignments done that I haven't had the chance to get relatively excited about going to Montreal next month. Actually two weeks from Sunday. Plus I'm trying to get a commission based job, and do some internship work with a local music company this summer. I'm (trying to get) on a mission!!!

I was extremely excited to see my cousins grad last night. Mekaeila and Dalkesha both went to Hughes Center, which is across the street from where I am. It was great to go to a graduation ceremony, the last one I been to was for my cousin Troy and friend Mauriel back in 2001. They went to the same school also. From all the shouting and screaming that all of us did last night, I'm surprised that anyone of us isn't hoarse. It was just so energetic to be in the Cintas Center, cheering the both of them on, makes me look that much forward to mines in December, hopefully in December. It better be in December, the word gets around quick in my family. Just last Thursday, another one of my cousins was on campus promoting her job at a plasma care facility. One of the first things she said to me was "I heard you were graduating this December..." I responded with a "Dang, the word gets out quick! I just told my Mom just two weeks ago". And I heard that she had just moved out from her parent's place and has an apartment now. She told me that she just moved out like a week ago when I saw her. Thus, further proving my point that gossip gets out quick, at least on my Mom's side of the family.

Back to the graduation stuff from last night. My Aunt and Grandma were on some other stuff, to say the least, when neither one of them decided to go to the ceremony. And my Aunt came up here from Alabama. Enough said. I'm going to have to begin giving people ultimatum now in preparation for mines. If you're acting an ass, you can't go. If you copped an attitude over my cousin's graduation, you can't be there for neither one of mines. I already know now that I don't have the time or the patience to deal with someone acting a fool and waste a ticket when it can go to someone else who seriously gives a crap. So to keep from hearing anyone gripe and complain last night, a few of us (Mekaeila, here little sister, K'nya, our other cousin, I'yanna, my mom and myself) went out to Applebee's for a celebration dinner. The service was bad, but the food was good. I finally got to try that Blue cheese Sirloin steak they constantly showed on the commercials, for what seemed like an eternity. Which reminds me, that's going to be my snack when I get home this evening.

So, all and all, it was a great evening, and the energy was off the charts! Too bad that enthusiasm didn't carry over into today, not yet anyways, and it's already 3:21 in the afternoon. For now I must continue with the rest of the papers I have to type and group projects to collaborate on. At least this weekend coming up is Memorial Day weekend and I get Monday off to relax and get some work done. Knowing me, I'll probably be out shopping for that Montreal trip. :)
(Procrastination: "That's how I got through high school.")

Congrats to all the 2004 grads this year! You know who you are!

I've been meaning to post this pic to archive my whereabouts this quarter. I met Jerry Springer on campus in the newly remodeled (which I know some of my tution went to; they don't say that 'UC stands for Under Construction' for nothing!) Tangeman Center. It was weird that I met him cuz I was just watching his tv show that morning, then met him 90 minutes later. Actually it was quite cool. Call me a nerd for that one, I don't really care. 

This is one of the days where my horoscope seems to be on point:

My Horoscope (Cancer):
Thursday 20 May
Today marks the start of an extremely creative and imaginative four week period for you. It’s time to start listening to your intuition, and trusting your hunches – and it’s also time to start expressing your feelings through some kind of art, crafts or writing. If you want to reorganise or redecorate your bedroom, this is also the perfect day to plan a stylish but practical solution.
www.bbc.co.uk

Must...post...links

Paul
Tala

The links above are from two friends from hs- they have blogs too. Thank you Tala for them. I'm gonna post them at the top soon, once I get a minute to do so. This midquarter burnout is hell. I need a nap...

Diddy Disbands 'Making The Band' Group

That finale on Thursday was shocking. I felt bad for Da Band. Its sad how they went from hella hungry in the first and second seasons to all the overblown drama and egotrippin in the third. Just watching the show taught me what not to do in a group situation.

And now, it's the sixth week of classes. Only got about a month to go before finals. By then I will be tired from all the presentations and papers that I must type. I'm thinking of starting a typing business this summer so that way I can at least get paid for something that I do all the time anyways. Just provide a service to people in the neighborhood; it'll save me from the job hunt for the time being if I get this done by the time I leave for Montreal on June 13th.

Updates on the usual stuff I discuss:

School: I'm actually going to finish in December! So I will get the best Christmas gift afterall, my degree. Getting more hyped about the Montreal trip as the weeks go by. :)
Love: This definitely classifies as a WTF issue. Not much going on. Talking to a few guys cuz I'm bored. Only want 2 of them (not at the same time, that's so not my thing). Would like to settle, but not right now. Hey, I'm in my 20's I'll save the marriage thing for later. Time to mingle!
Work: Still gonna work at Langsam Library until the end of the year. May have an internship pending, depends on the company's needs. Looking for a second job, possibly a third. Hoping to make the typing services my hustle for the summer. Searching for a job sucks!
Dreams: Still want to be a songwriter/singer. Have to learn how to sing in front of people on the spot, never know what could happen. For now, I'm still writing things here and there, and getting my voice on point (i.e. singing songs that are in my key, like Monica, Brandy, etc.)
Etc.: Want to move out the house, but on good terms with my Mom. I hate fighting with her, its frustrating and so unnecessary at times.

This is a little something that I wrote in my mini notebook one night after being out with friends. I forgot to scan it, but it due time, it will be posted. Here's the actual text of what I wrote in the notebook:

4.26.04
I question my maturity sometimes. What makes it even worse it that I'm questioning it at 4:30 am Monday. I look at the people that I grew up with - even the ones I lost contact w/ and just been seeing them recently (just running into them & what not). I look @ everyone else around me and feel like they look their age. Not necessairly act it all the time (kids @ heart, no insults). I'm 21, feeling 16 and look 18, 19 on a good day. The logic is all screwed up on that one. Maybe its just the insomnia & insecurities speaking right now but I feel naive & gullable about life, and I'm about 2B 22 in 2 months. [It's too early/too late to ponder such deep thoughts.] It has a lot 2 do w/ my upbringing. Quite diciplined & structured to the point of asking if it was necessary. I was a good child. Parents were just overprotective. Maybe a bit too much. So when I finally became of age 2 do a couple things, I felt like I was lookin @ the word with a pair of fresh eyes: Perspective was altered immediately (kinda). Maybe not that instantly but it changed. There's something profound that I want 2 say, but that's out the window now. It's 4:40 am. It's hard 2B profound this late @nite/ this early in the AM. Maybe I can sleep better after writing this down. Lets hope so.

End: 4:41am

Let's see, it's been three weeks since I've began spring clasees. It's a shame how my world revolves around when the school quarters begin. Really, its not all that sad, because this is the life that I chose for myself. In a way, I'm gonna hate to see it go, that is, if I'm really up for graduating in December. It all boils down to one class, the capstone (final) class for my Family Business/Entrepreneurship minor. If it's offered in the fall, then I will have my BBA as the sweetest Christmas present ever, and if it's offered in the Winter or Spring in 05, then that means I can have the degree a early birthday gift.

For the time being, I'm just trying to adjust to taking 19 credits hours of courses this quarter, which I vowed that I would never do in my entire tenure as a college student. Once the tuition has made an official increase for the 04-05 academic year, that swayed me to take on another class instead of taking a third in the summer and paying out of pocket for, or wearing myself down in my possibly final quarter in the fall.

And then the Real World kicks in. Not the tv show, the part of my life where I have to decide on what I want to do for a living, at least for the next 5 years. I'm unsure if there are any people nowadays that stay with one company for 30 years or more. In the generations past, that's how things were, but now people change jobs like they change their drawls (yea drawls, not drawers). These four and some years went by like the previous four years that I endured, also known as high school to many. Sometimes I like to call it hell, cuz I went through many life changing events between 1996 and 2000 in my personal life and school life that it altered my outlook to an extent.

To sum it all up: I just want to find a good career that I won't have to dread going to five days a week.

Somehow the Friday Five from 4-9 (My girl Dezzy's birthday) fits in with this career and school discussion, somewhat anyways:

1. What do you do for a living? I'm a student. I work p-t though, on campus @ the library.

2. What do you like most about your job? The flexibility, I'm going to miss that when I have to find a f-t position somewhere.

3. What do you like least about your job? The occasional gruntwork. Then again, my position is the Student Assistant. So that's what I end up with.

4. When you have a bad day at work it's usually because _____... I'm sick or really tired.

5. What other career(s) are you interested in? Anything creative that's in the music industry. I wanna shine, baby. :)

For now, instead of pondering all of life's questions about my future, I'm gonna go and relax. It's a beautiful day out, and I got my bags packed for yet another road trip. This time, I'm headed to Jersey and NYC for 2 days. Supposed to have been 3 days but things occur for a reason. I'm excited about getting out the state once again! Happy weekend to the 5 people that read this, if that many. I may make a out of town post once I get settled in in Jersey early Saturday morning.


An update to the post from March 14th: I got selected to participate in Study Abroad! I go to Montreal for a week in June! :D Now, that's something to celebrate. Plus, its not that official yet, but I may have an summer internship too, I promised the lady that I interviewed with that I would keep in contact with her during this quarter to let her know of my summer whereabouts. I could definately use the extra money, especially when I get my L's. I'm shooting for a Memorial Day deadline for that one. Now I wonder why I missed all of this in the paragraphs above. Oh well.

Tuition increased maximum amount
Great, now I'm gonna be in more in debt.